Since receiving my rejection from the master’s program I applied to, I’ve been thinking a lot about what my next step is going to be. Do I try to find another full time job? Do I just wait around and get a throw away job until I can re-apply for the Fall? Or do I go against everything my logical brain is screaming at me and follow the tug that’s been in that other corner of my brain (you know that corner- the one that comes up with schemes and thinks the world is made of rainbows and sunshine) and just start freelancing full time?
At this point I’ve almost gained enough courage to go for it. It’s sort of like a trust fall, except I’m the only one that’s going to catch me, and if I end up flat on my back with the wind knocked out of me, I won’t be the only one suffering. I’ll have my husband and dog starving, and my creditors knocking on my parents’ door asking where their money is for the education I am so brilliantly not utilizing.
But then, it’s not as if I am totally devoid of people willing to pay me for my design work. I have a couple of clients who have sort of been waiting in the wings for me to have the time to devote to their needs, and I’ve had offers from others to start freelancing for them. It’s just such a scary prospect to say, “here’s how much money I need to make” and then go out and find people to fill in those gaps. With a full-time job it was simple. Get up, go to work, do your job, get paid. No problem. This….this is serious. Get up, oh no clients – no work, no job, don’t get paid.
However, there is a lot of information out there about how to do this (believe me I’ve read a ton of it.) Yet, nothing I read has ever been able to convince me to just start falling, trusting myself to make a big arm basket and not drop myself in the dirt.
In my search, I came across this book: Design Is A Job. It’s only $9 as an e-book, and I plan on getting it. I’ll post a review after I read it, and let you all know if it’s worth your time. From the description, and the little bit of it I read in the chapter previews, I think it will be.
Any way, there’s a peek inside my brain, and what’s happening in the life of RachelAnn Design. I hope to get back to posting fun things to look at, and stuff I’m working on soon, so keep coming back!
Until Next Time,